Following the rules

Just for today….

I have been a rule breaker and rule follower for a very long time.

It works for me.

Mostly.

But then again, it doesn’t work in many ways.

I have continued to gain weight or at the very least, I have not lost any weight.

Truth be told, I have not followed any “dieting” rules or suggestions in a long time for any kind of consistent time.

I might intermittent fast for 1 or 2 days during the week. 

Then I fall off the wagon.

Or I fast during the day, “fast”, and binge at night.

I want to follow the rules for one month.

but I will start with one day.

Despite my lackadaisical efforts, I cannot lose weight.

It shouldn’t be a mystery to me but I continue to act perplexed and annoyed that my body does not look (and more importantly) feel the way I want it to feel and look.

I don’t feel comfortable in my skin. It’s not a good feeling. My gut feels bloated most days. My bones are creaky. It’s hard to move from a stopped position. It takes several steps and stretches to get moving.

It’s quite annoying.

Just for today. I plan to follow the rules.

There are tips, tricks, hacks, and healthy ways to get healthier. but it requires effort. It requires doing something differently.

I am going to set very, very, very short goals.

TODAY I am going to follow the rules.

Just TODAY.

Eff tomorrow.

Today. I will follow the rules.

I will use the magic hand to discern if I am body hungry or is it my emotions & my commitment to escaping uncomfortable situations by eating playing out.

I will drink a big glass of water before I choose a meal.

I will do my 15 minute meditation (done!)

I will do my kundalini challenge (will do after my next sessIon).

What will happen if I follow the rules for today?

I followed the rules (that I set) yesterday.

Benefits: no bloating, feelings of accomplishment, pride, no wtf moments in which I chastise myself harshly and then eat some more.

Cons: I was very alert and struggled to go to sleep.

Just for Today Daily Meditation
Membership
Page 363
There is only one requirement for membership, the desire to stop using.
Basic Text, p. 9
We all know people who could benefit from Narcotics Anonymous. Many people we encounter from all walks of life-our family members, old friends, and co-workers-could really use a program of recovery in their lives. Sadly, those who need us don’t always find their way to our rooms.

NA is a program of attraction, not promotion. We are only members when we say we are. We can bring our friends and loved ones to a meeting if they are willing, but we cannot force them to embrace the way of life that has given us freedom from active addiction.

Membership in Narcotics Anonymous is a highly personal decision. The choice to become a member is made in the heart of each individual addict. In the long run, coerced meeting attendance doesn’t keep too many addicts in our rooms. Only addicts who are still suffering, if given the opportunity, can decide if they are powerless over their addiction. We can carry the message, but we can’t carry the addict.
Just for Today: I am grateful for my decision to become a member of Narcotics Anonymous.

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