I set some boundaries today. I didn’t do it happily or gracefully. I did it with screaming and tears. I stated it with snot running down my face but I did it. It hurt a lot. My heart was crying. My heart was mad. My heart was feeling crazy but my head remembered doing this before.
I set some boundaries. I cried while I did it. I talked about it for a while.
I felt a little crazy. I felt a lot crazy.
I finally calmed down. I guess I calmed down. I want to do something different for myself. I want to be strong and independent and believe in my strength. I want to be the person that I encourage others to be. I want to be free from my hurts and my past. I want to be free from hurting from crushed expectations. I want to be free from yearning and hoping to be enough. I want to be free to be juicy.
I am free. I am free to cry. I am free to smile. I am free. I am free. I am free.
I am in a new place and I am not sure what to do with myself.
When I talk to people when they are struggling to work through an issue, I ask them what has worked in the past. So I ask myself what has worked in the past. I answered myself,
“Self, do you boo. Remember what made you feel good about you. Remember what you love. Remember your juicy. Remember to work on your mind, body, and spirit. Remember you are enough. Remember you are a Queen and you have been through this before and you will be wonderful”.