Peace is peaceful


Yeah, let’s start this one out with something utterly redundant and silly. But very profound. At least it is to me. I can reflect back on the last couple weeks and months and feel peace swelling in me.

This weekend at the farm, we were supposed to get rain both days. We didn’t get any rain at all!! Well, take that back, we got a couple drops but it was hard to tell what it was doing because it was such a weird rain. It was a beautiful weekend out spending time with Mother, nature that is! I have been profoundly blessed to be out there several times a week and during the weekend.

Mother has been speaking to me.

The variety, regularity, and frequency of animal visitors has been an amazing surprise this year. Am I more aware? Am I pausing a little bit more to pay attention? I know that I am asking for visitors. Every time I am there I am searching and reaching out energetically to Mother and asking for signs and visitors. I haven’t been disappointed.

Not only have the animals, specifically female animals. I have seen mothers and mothers and mothers. The other day, I was riding through the trails doing solar light checks and distribution and I saw a turkey. She was a little agitated and several rows away from me. I wasn’t an immediate threat but she seemed agitated. I looked and looked. Sure enough, mama was protecting her flock. She had at least 7 little turkey babies surrounding her.

The birds have been very protective of their flocks. Mothers are always protective of their flocks. However those flocks look. As women, we are so often called and compelled to caretake for those we love and spend time with. It’s a beautiful thing and we bring to the world a softness that the world desperately needs. But make no mistake, being soft and tender is not a sign of the weaker sex. It is a sign that a person is willing to be vulnerable and take a chance that their efforts of being compassionate and loving will be accepted and received and valued.

As mothers, we often care for others that don’t often show appreciation. We get yelled at and ignored by little kids, then tweens, and then those rotten teenagers show us what it really feels like to be treated like a nonentity with no valuable knowledge, wisdom, or life experience.

Oh freaking well. We still love and care for them and do our best to keep them safe. We do our best to teach them to grow up to be strong, avoid hurts, and be good people. I don’t know that it is our job to help them to avoid hurts and falls. We love them so much we want to protect them forever. But as adults we know that the most valuable lessons are those that are forged in pain. Sad but true. If we keep moving through the pain with the intention of growing and learning, we become stronger in knowledge, wisdom, and life experience. We can’t feel all the feels and safe the ones we love and care for by rescuing them from these valuable experiences. Although, it might seem to be imperative at the time when you witness and hold space for those going through the lessons.

Sigh. Being a mother is challenging. Being a mother is rough. Being a mother is a mother.

Last night, while I was at the farm, I had to dispose of a dead raccoon. It wasn’t something I was comfortable doing. It was something I haven’t done very much, if at all. In fact, it is “messy” work that I have always shied away from. But somebody had to take care of it and I was the only one available so I handled it. Just like we do. And by we, I mean, strong women and mothers. WE find the strength and the means to handle things. We just do it. So I did it.

While walking through the farm, I encountered a baby deer covered in white spots. She was so little and upset. She couldn’t find her mother. She ran back and forth cheeping or mooing or whatever her sound is called for her mother. She did not like my presence but she was focused on finding her mother. I think she finally found her because eventually she wasn’t visible to me. I wonder if this is the fawn of the mother deer that I spooked into running into the pond and swimming across? I don’t know but I believe it is the baby of that mother deer. Both close to the water. Both frantic but determined. I hope they find some peace.

I am finding peace. Finding peace is not a destination. I am not automatically just freaking ZEN MAMA with no frustrations, no anger, no disappointment, no annoyances. It is a journey in which every day I choose to see things through a certain lens. My lens has changed in the last couple years during my journey of producing MFR. I used to get so frustrated and resentful when people would help me. Whether they were helping me with actual task or helping me to see situations differently so I could handle it emotionally, I would get defensive. I would somehow think that their offer of help was a judgment of my competence and I would get defensive. I would attack. I would assume I knew what their intention was when it was truly an offer of help, not a condemnation or a judgment. I was a mess. But I have learned to change that lens. Through so much work and so much biting my tongue to give myself the chance to ask additional questions, I have changed the story I tell myself or at the very least, I ask more questions and don’t just assume I know intentions, thoughts, or beliefs. I slowly but surely changed the lens I see others through by questioning and pausing and practicing small, micro changes of not reacting, not assuming, not defending, not believing my own bullshit. By taking the time to be with Mother (Nature), I have learned to pay attention to the lessons Mother gives to me so I can be peaceful. Not being in a constant state of proving myself and defending myself, I have found peace.

The turkey spirit animal appears to you when you there’s a need to channel your energy in a more balanced manner.Just like the moth spirit animal, the turkey symbolism teaches you to grow and change with the events that happen to you. Let the turkey totem be your powerful guide as you unlock the fullness of your life.You will find that satisfaction is easier to achieve if you apply the turkey symbolism in seeking happiness and harmony!

Common Turkey Spirit Animal Meanings

Similar to the jellyfish, the turkey spirit animal is a symbol of abundance. It is an encouragement to celebrate your resources that nourish your physical, emotional, and spiritual aspects. Foster a harmonious relationship between yourself and the world that you live in because it’s the foundation to your well-being. Being connected to the earth and becoming aware of how it plays a role in your life will make you appreciate all that you have in a deeper and more meaningful way.

The turkey symbolism brings the message of unlocking the richness of your life so that you can appreciate everything.

It asks you to focus less on wanting material things because they will not give you lasting happiness.

The meaning of the turkey also speaks about feminine energies that are at work in your life. If you are hoping to have a family anytime soon, it’s a good time to receive the turkey symbolism because it also indicates fertility.

The turkey spirit animal highlights the real meaning of giving and receiving, and harvesting the rewards of your good deeds.

You have the power of your voice to achieve your dreams, and you should stand up for your rights and the rights of others to create the life that you desire.

I have found peace in my interactions with my friends, family, colleagues, and with MYSELF.

I am finding peace by each micro choice I make in not being mad. I am finding peace in believing in the goodness of others. I am finding peace in being with myself. I am finding peace by being with others. Truly being with others so I can know them and know myself.

After seeing the fawn last night, I drove down the road in the golf cart. I had to stop for a mink crossing. Yes, a mink. I don’t know that I have ever seen a mink crossing the road. This MAMA mink was carrying her baby in her mouth like a cat carries her kitten.

The Mink Totem

Mink – Complex Thoughts and Philosophies 

Requiring rich environments to thrive, protected safe places, fresh-water wisdom, complexity, being drawn to complex concepts and philosophies, dense study over light skimming, needing seclusion to find nourishment, being desirable for what you produce; not who you are, wanting energy in reserve, willing to go to deep, painful places for wisdom, connections to telepathy and mind-to-mind spiritual contact, using hostility as a weapon, underestimated intelligence, possible clashes with European mink and otter energy. 

If you have American mink as a guide or totem in your life, you’ll often find that you require and prefer rich environments in which to live. This can refer to wanting financial security, or an environment that is richly stimulating intellectually, emotionally and sexually. Generally, you will find that you suffer or do quite poorly in impoverished environments. This includes landscapes that are by nature arid, or semi-arid, as well as less literal landscapes that might provide little by way of external stimulus or comfort. 

You prefer protected safe places that you can control wherever possible, this means that you generally don’t like people coming over uninvited, and that you have very firm internal rules about what is a safe place, and what isn’t. Your idea of safety can be quite stringent compared to that of others, and is often anchored more to protected places, than to certain people. In addition, you will regularly seek out seclusion in order to find nourishment, wisdom or energy. Conditions are optimum when your safe place is also a space where you are guaranteed seclusion.

Amazing!! Another mama womanfestation. Yeah, I just appropriate the word manifest and made it into womanfest because this is my blog and it will not be man-centered but WOMAN-centered.

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